Reflections over the Holiday period
Reflections over the Holiday period
We are only just emerging from the Christmas holiday and start tentatively looking towards a new year. Christmas is a time for families and friends coming together to celebrate, share and have a lovely time together. For some of us it is also a time of deep sadness and a deep longing for our loved ones that are no longer here. It can be so conflicting as in my own case I absolutely love Christmas and want to enjoy everything that comes with it, on the other hand I really just want to pull a duvet over my head and wake up when it’s all over. For me is always an active choice, to choose living and enjoying life the best that I can. It is natural to feel guilt for having a lovely time and to enjoy life….
This Christmas has for me been the hardest so far. It is the third Christmas without Christian and the first Christmas that we celebrated without family with us. We love having family staying over Christmas and it’s always fun and very busy but reflecting on the past days I do believe I/we have needed this time to slow down and to allow.. Allow feelings to come, allow for quiet reflection, allow to just be. In a strange way I woke up this morning feeling lighter in my soul, rested. This has made me reflect on how very important it is to give ourselves the time we need to heal, not just to keep busy going from one thing to another but to listen to ourselves what we really need.
It might sound corny but I do believe that it is in the darkest moments we can find the deepest and biggest shifts if we allow for it to appear, to find the spark of light in the darkness to help guide us.
My guiding light is to live my fullest and best life for Lucas and show him with my actions that I am not giving up. It is also to fully grab life for Christian, to honour him and his amazingly pure and happy soul. Some days feels nearly impossible and so dark and heavy and it is important to allow for these days and feelings just as important as it is to find the light again after that darkness.
So now we are only days away from the beginning of a new year…. What are the intentions for 2025? What do we want more of in the year ahead? Less of? New energy, more travel? Whatever it is I invite you to please take some time to reflect how you would like to shape 2025. I usually write a list of things that I would like to leave in 2024 and burn it in the fire, then I write a new list with intensions for 2025 and keep it in a safe place. For me it has always been a very therapeutic way to wipe the slate clean. There are many ways to do this and maybe something else would resonate better with you.
With quiet optimism and gentle excitement I wish you all a Happy New Year ✨✨
With light and love always✨❤️
